letter to enrica that night

I am sorry if I have made some grammar mistakes or some unsuitable vacabulary in this message, as I am not an English native speaker.
Hey Enrica, how day, good morning po. Ako si Kai, ako ay talaga ang tanga. Recently, Benice and I have argued for so long time. I believe that Benice also told you something about it. First I am sorry for bothering you, please forgive me if I do bring you some sadness or trouble.
To review this event, I will introduce in my view, and it may be not as the same as Benice had told you (If I had some mistake facts in this article, please forgive because I couldn’t remember it well). I almost forgot why we started to argue. But it was like we mostly probably solve the issue that day. But it feels like something wrong with it. It was very late that day so we were just said “We are okay” and went to sleep. The next day, I found that Benice still has some attituide and I was curious. So I asked her the reason. I didn’t realize that it brought us the argument again. But luckily, we still had solved that “successfully”. That night, Benice didn’t be online. And that time one of my vietnamese friends (she knows Benice because I told her about Benice) texted to me, saying she wanted to practise spoken Chinese with me for her the day after tomorrow’s Chinese spoken test as she chose Chinese as the major in university. I told Benice that I was going to call a girl and told Benice her username, and introduced her briefly. Then we started to talk. The next day morning, Benice agreed that. And everything was fine that day. But on that day’s night, when we are watching film, the girl who practise Chinese yesterday texted me again, saying she wanted to do some speaking practise. I told Benice that she wanted to practise Chinese with me and at last Benice gave me 2 ways to let me choose. But whatever yes or not, Benice got jealous at last. But the problem is I’ve already promised that friend that I would practice with her but Benice got jealous. I really have no thought about how to solve this. So after Benice sleeped, I told her that we could practice. I don’t know whether I made a good decision or not, but that time, I have no way. And the most important issues happened at today, that’s one of the reason why I texted you. Benice said she had lost her feelings on me sometimes. Benice today acted a bit strange, maybe because of last day’s arguments. I still couldn’t forget that word because we were okay and good before. “Cause I think our love is only one sided!”, Benice told me that. She told me that she always did the everything however I never thought of her and her feelings, and I couldn’t even give her assurance. And then argument started again.
I am living in China, as you know, a kinda feudal society and most parents strongly oppose a love that is too early (which means a love under 18 y.o), because of this, I lied to Benice several times, saying my mom knows her. But actually not (Maybe it’s not accruate, because my mom has already detected her but just don’t know her name). I feel so shameful to lie to her, I admit that I really did it badly this time.
The main reason why I am texting you today is that I hope you could give me some kind suggestions on how to be good and okay again, as well as how to regain Benice (Because she told me that “Gain me again”).
I am facing senior high school entrance exam, a national exam, also one of the most important exam of every single Chinese. I feel very stressful, whatever on mental or physics. I realized that it might because I was tired after school next month, and I didn’t talk to Benice well, which led this result.
But I want to complain that, the night I told Benice that I would have an important exam next month, Benice started to be espeically brush off. I couldn’t understand it, because I still need her love, even though I was in exam period, even though I was in the preparation processing. I always need her love.
Thanks for reading this message, Enrica. Could you please kindly give me some solution on it? I am really hopeless right now.
Thanks once again, Enrica.

Best regards,
Kai Kang